This Weekend. and other such rambling

so, this coming weekend Michael and I are heading up north :) im excited!! My mom is estatic haha shes silly. I told her we were coming and she like FREAKED out :) im also excited for...

1. Liver and Onions
2. Oreo Cookie Ice Cream cake
3. my bed
4. snowmobilling
5. my family

...need i go on?!  but have no fear..by Sunday i'll be happy to be coming back to Wisconsin! :) I like the feeling of visiting and returning to the place i call home (well kinda..) 

well..im sure i'll think of something more to add on here..but i'll do that later..i work till 8 tonight (yay) and i think tomorrow -weather permitting- im gonna go to my brothers for mtg and maybe the night..idk its weird..we never used to be close but now he calls me to "check up" on me and actually makes me feel -idk what the word is but- maybe like part of the family..idk?! but im happy. actually im happy about alof of things. :) im so glad that besides after flying the other week i havnt had a real anxiety "melt down" in a long time! i REALLY want to start running again..i miss track season..and when i was in FL we saw some guy doing sprints and i literly wanted to run over and start running with him.it was crazy.so...one of these days im going to start..maybe when it gets a lill warmer out or on the treadmill..and id like to start lifting weights again...who knows. :) ok all for now.

<3

Thoughts...

Yesterday, I statarted back to work..it was nice. Altho weird bc i had been off for quite a while. 

Tonight a friend and I were talking about Adoption. And got me thinking and i know i prolly talk alot about this subject and have talked about it in mtg and other places but It really means alot to me. I am so thankful that my birth mom had the strength to give me up..i know it would be very hard for me to do! But, I give her credit! It has often made me think about wanting to adopt (not that i wouldnt love my own as much). I know if i hadnt been adopted i wouldnt have had all the priviladges iv had in my 18 almost 19 years. In May, before graduation, I met my birth mom for the first time! It was something I have always thought about doing. And will be something I will always remember. I often think about where i could be if it hadnt been for my mom and dad who so willingly gave me a place in their heart! I found out that i was the first one in my whole family to graduate from high school let alone go to college!! My twin sisters (who are sophmores) will be the next. And, one of my brother is in prison... There were times when i thought life could be better but after thinking about this it came clear to me that i have anything i could ever want and that i didnt need it to be any better!! I take for granted so much how lucky i am and all that i have! I could go on and on but i'll spare you that :)

Micah, Me,  Breanna (My twin sisters and I)

Me,Marlena and Maddison (my sister and her baby girl)

Me and my Birth mom, Annie

I feel the "theme" of my year has been "Privilages". It seems like in my 18, almost 19 years i'v had so many!! Going to Alaska, visiting 25+ states, Mexico, the many conventions i have attended, perfessing,the truth, meeting my birth mom, being adopted, meeting wonderful friends/people, the list goes on and on.. I feel like i have so much to be thankful for and havnt been thankful enough. 

Dad and I at Graduation

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      

  Turkey Hunting- May '08

 

Mom, Me & Dad

              Graduation May 24, 2008

Mom and Dad, Thank you so much for everything! You have sacrificed so much so that i could have a good life, and im not sure what i would'v done without you! The past couple months we have grown closer than we've ever been!  I love you so much!

<3 alyssa